Sunday, September 27, 2009

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then the image came alive in me in one or several of my enery bodies.i felt the my head just merged into my heart,a new heart then,them little blue circles began eraing auditoryily stuck-froze tapes,belief tapes in my throat-i connected to a priorly meaningless senoi indian drem process i had done,where my diceased father told me i had not finished burying mim,and for two decades,all i knew was 'wha a 10% off the top mental interpretation.well ,know i am being givenheart connected guidance what that is all for and what to practilly do wiyth iy.then,theses pleidian guides that ae the crux of this image.first,i pondered the red dots,then,they pondered me:then a gall bladder band around my temples dissolved into sparle-like energyies. then,my eyesite focusing went'soft;i.e.peripher. three datys later,the warm ing voice suggested-these are the pleidesians. well i have absolutely no knowledge of pleides whatsoever.i guess i should. the ritual of wrighting as my west virginia/pennsyvania hillbilly persona,,is an authentic,artistic expressive part of me

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I would ask that family folks cut me some slack as it has been many cycles since i put my experiences to writ, +finding my way around this computer contraption is a whale of a challenge and surprisinly fun but the contrast between my state bejust before receiving this image ,is a kinda good shock,for historical me...
I waz jest about to order the large pizza,the one with the garlic and anchovies,from ythe only eatery i have found within driving distance.numb all the way out with dairy and and real men dont feel,rite. then i felt the 'tug' to go inside and check the email..well,the message with the image arrived.i set down and wouldnt you know,the projections poured outa me onyto ythe image.. 'oh nut,plane geometry-i fknew it,this traing is way beyond me-after all i flunked plane geometry.this must be one of these higher education teaching courses.. when they find out i have no real [academic]wherewithals,they are gonna abandon me andthis image began flowing in me,using the stuck energy as substanct for transformathis transforming process,i guess. then this newfound guidance came in-thank you maria-a nurturing voice in my troat n heart:pause,marc,pauuse,prcticenoninterference,puse marc ,invite the inner breath to move trough me,pause-invi am inviting the inner breath to move through me,iam pausing i am delighting in tracking the juice flowing throughout my energy bodies.then

Friday, September 18, 2009

arkansas state fair mule jumping contest

Stephanie approached me out at the gfront of the guet house.i had planted myself there since early a.m.getting new load of firewood stacked before the next rain started sneezing again.mixes blessings.anyway,my pardner of 20+ years was uncharacteristically all shook up.this was a compadrie who goes off into the forrest,the everglades solo,at nit .reinventing fearlessness.still she was shook. and wouldnt you know it,i had just downed one pof these starbuck expresso thingos-a gift from an old time horse driver who had dropped by to view the new dra ft choice.He appraised mr e:"now what have you done,marc?this here mule has had a rough go at it and he would just as soon know you from here to nyc as sure as i am standing h ere .by he way,you came up here from w.va.via nyc,didnt cha?well here,you ny boys drink these starbuck things all the time this must be for you..'i had got past gettin riled by these fallers,i told myself,tried to tell mysef. w ell i was eatin gp retty stri ctlymacro for a timei can handle this expresso.no sooner had i downded this delicios drink did my kidneys beginto do a jig,then,my whole spine and knees joined in. a w nut s,this might be the end of me"; then steph shows up .that mule your mule.he just jumped the fence ,the 6'high fe nce re a lly close to where i was s tanding and now he is in the upper garden eating our kale.i struggled to discover a rational reasonable grounding sense,but the friggin expresso overload had a whole different gameplan for my day.i knew never to show ,sound project fear to any equine,longear especially.still this guy was determined to let us knoe he was not going to join into what i hoped was the prior harmonious community at mtharmony farm.well,i got him to rejoin the other equine eventually,course after he galloped aways on over to the nearest neighbors newly planted flower garden and turning that into a muinstsntaneous mule paddock.....................then i felt the 'call' to come inside and go directly to the computer to check my email. well ,this image arrived from maria. and my inner critic,schooled in w.va self-ridicule,started in on me...uh oh,plane geometry uh oh oh boy when mthis issystem imust be for high level meditators-i shoulda studied with those tibetans when i with chance,once maria finds out i am a rite brained emotional,she really is gonna ask me to go away...and i challenged all that ,and gragged a couple deep breaths as i contemplated.practing noninterference as i am learning from marias teachings.the image became alive-inside me-in one or some of my energy bodies.dissoling of troat chakra tapes begag,running a clearing wounded child abandonment and i felt united in a higher heart centerthan i was awaren of prior:the flow of all inclusive loving.this image is always availiable ,internally,as a resource for melting stucck states into oneness. thank you maria yraceburu.and then i sensed an inner prompting"now go out with that same mule andwatch him respond to and thank you maria.. i had a coupla folks stay here to study tbagua meditation ..i gave each prayers.i told em if you do this,and just stick with it-you will get what yer hoping to get from all this taoist rigamarole your paying me to tach you..them a copy

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

appreticeship

I had reintroduced my family to my teacher's sharings,,maria yraceburu-around about five weeks ago. the time had come for me to take the next step as her student-sighns were evident as sunlight;so I invited my family into my daily mheel ritual,prefacing that our most pressing need would be met within ten,twelve hours after this quero apache ritual.well if you were not there,you possibly would not take my word for it,but lo and behold.ten I announced"hey ,my next commitment to this appearance of some hardship to us,so how about i ask for a miracle again.'" well lo and behold. and once more and the family responded with 'go for it'
well i did,and some sacred teachings did arrive shortly after making my commitment.i placed them on the alter.the next morning,a glint of sunlight made it through the closed drapes and pulled down shades ,and was shining on a red candle on the alter. well to my earl morning seses,it appeared the candle was burning, and throwing ite light onto theses sacred texts/teachings. honest.. thank you maria
now ,i am making the most fulfilling connections to my child hood:the woods the burial mounds, qween aliquippa, stepmother hellin and my near death experience and drums and piano taken away and my need to get back into that sacred forrest to be one,and trust opening to flow of love frpom the Mother.And it was then and there i discovered mules.no onder i have this strong connection to them. the mammoth jackstock are a whole different universe for me. our mammoth mare is in our heart of heart-some sort of gifting from mother earth-escondesehe and pleidian knowing she has. more chore time.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Farm finds me

we been here going on fur years. some time ago,we were in the back seat of a real estate agents car and well,once we bought this and settled in, steph said-"Dont you remember -this is the place that you told the real estate agent 'if that place we just drove by ever opens up-well it would suit me to a T..and I forgot not quite all about it.I do remember the state i was in then:tuckered,fried from too much roadstop coffee,and plenty of sharp enough peripheral knowing...so with the western astro;ogy map:i could be said to be a cancer sun,moon rising-all in the twelth house:my constant companions here are moose,red winged blackbird,duck. Bear ,deer,and rabbit are way out in the west pasture area[far enough away from the vacation rental].snake shows up at poignyant decisionmaking times-a "yes"
sign for me..we addeded the longears,geeses,guinea hens. I am saving my pennies to buy a coupla tibetan yaks..I have finished fencing in the entire 10 acres myself...am attempting to negotiate purchasing the adjoing 14 acres to the west, got outbid on the land to my south .

apprentice ship

I come int the dining room...the red alter candle appears to be lit,lite hits it at the spiritually potent angle.. I read my teacher ,Maria,email about the red lite.

I go over to the carriage house and,as i put on raven cd,a crow calls out simultaneously.

yesterday,eyes system arrives from rgarden-i come into the office as an email from my teacher arrives"for your eyes." then an eagle flies overhead. Then grandma arrives with dinner-Salmon!


Yester day,I disc-harrowed the buckwhat covercrop into mother earth.way out in one of the two westpasture gardend. as i was pretty spent at the end of the workday,i nicked a sunflower and a coupla squash or two.I broadcast organic oats into the other west garden-i had disc harrowed the buckwheat there two weeks ago.I also disc harrowed the oats in the west pasture into the mother ,to be followed by timothy in about 10 days-whenever the next new moon is. Oh-a striking green frog kept me company for the whole to-do...